All the negative feelings&thought comes into my mind....
Suppose I will very happy, because finally I had finished all the midterms, assignments...
and finished my presentation today....
1st Shock:
I got my Macroeconomics' midterm...
And I got super terrible marks...
10.5/60~ I really I wanna die when I saw that marks...
Crazy.... I never get that low marks in my life...
REALLY!!! Even my result is not so good...
But it nvr go this bad before....
I probably/ 99.99% will fail!
Except the miracle appears....
I really dont know whether is my problem/ lecturers problem/midterm is too hard...
2nd Shock:
My presentation....
I know I wont get a good marks from it....
My tutor commented: just READ from the slide...
(something like that... "For the past three presenter are just read from the slide."I cant remember what she said. I only know she dont really showed a interesting expression while Im presenting... So I can guess what result I get!!! )
If u know me.... U definitely knew that Im really scared presentation...
I told many ppl that I very scared to present, and they asked me Why??
Erm.... I cant answer them.... Because even myself also dont know why....
Erm... Mayb bcoz Im not a talkactive person... and I scared to face crowd...
My mind bcum "blank" whn I walked out n face the crowd....
And I started talk very fast.... n READ but not presenting...
Concluded, Im really not a good PRESENTER!!!
3rd Shock
After experienced that two shocks!!
Im very tired and in a very bad mood!!!
I cant smile !!! *from my heart*
*When Eling finished presenting, she told me that is time to "play"... On that moment, I really dont have mood to play anymore.... with this such BAD result... Even I really want to shopping/ relax...*
3rd shock is I recieved my QT2 midterm....
It is slightly better than MAcro... but it not good enuf...
ngam ngam over half of the midterm.... 24/40... Still considered low in someppl's eyes...
But for me, I appreciated what I have.... I knew that I had did many mistakes on it...
So this marks I can accept it, since it ady over half of it...
All the ditry word "fly" around my mind....
(What I said is true... If I said I scored bad, is really Im scored very BAD!! Im not a excessive modesty person... I will said bowl is bowl, plate is plate... )
I told my mummy that I probably will fail my macro....
and just now she comes to me and asked:"Why u want to let it fail??"
I answer her with a very angry mood... "this is not I want.... Many ppl oso like tat la~"
*Actually I lie to her in some point... Not many ppl will fail, Just ME!!!*
What Im doing now is EAT!!!
Nothing can do~
I just try to reduce my bad mood n stress by eating...
Chessnut....
Dried MAngoes....
